everything's so messed up right now. what do you wish from me? what actions do u want me to show? can u please come clear to me for once.... just once.. tell me every, single thing that is happening right now..... i'm totally lost, being hung there over the weeks..
i need to make this point clear to you and this will be the last time i'm explaining this to you. every since the broke up, i had been pestering u, kept on wanting answers from u. realizing that u didn't want me to bother u and that u wish to have a time of ur own... i finally stood up and make my vows to stop contacting u that often. yet at the same time, i'll always giv u constant checkings like morning calls, night calls... etc.... how can u say that i've not been doing anything to show u i care? A period of distance was wat u wanted from me.... i gave us that period to cool down and lead a life that maybe both we wanted to... yet u turned back and bite me. saying that the situation seemed that i don't care at all....
If u had came clear to me ever since right from the beginning, none of this would have happened, and we wouldn't be heading the route to where we are right now. you know that ur a forgetful person, yet u chose now to tell me stuff about wat's happening... its like ur giving me puzzle pieces, expecting me to fix the picture in my mind by myself.. when i dun even know wats happening. eventually i became close with him... wat is the main factor that drew us both to became good frens? its u. u made us hanged there...(especially me). i dun see u often do u realise tt? and right now it seems like ur disappointed in me????? wat is this? playing mind games with me? gave me the cold shoulders for a couple of weeks, all of a sudden u started contacted me more frequently... told me a few tings.. and then expect me to picture everything into places... and then right now ur feeling disappointed in me and u dun trust me anymore. wow oh gosh... and u told me over at pasir ris that u felt bad of how u treated me back then.
wat's exactly right up in ur mind right now?! i dunno a single shit god damn it.... and all u know is to ask me to put myself in ur shoes and see ur perspective to the situation.... i can't do it! i dunno anything!!!!!!!!!! and i'm already not being doing well in my life right now.. needless to say think about this. pls. can u stop all this nonsense of blocking everything from me... i need to know everything..... u can't ask me wat i need to know... because i'm not aware of wats happening right now. u should tell me.
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